the fast lane ;

sex !

"flee from fornication. every other sin that a man may commit is outside his body, but he that practices fornication is sinning against his own body." 1 Corinthians 6:18
[fornication means sexual intercourse between partners who are not married to each other]
the bible clearly states sex before marriage is a sin ;
&& even against my body ?
no thankss i rather be abstinent ;
i know there's temptations out there but God wouldnt give you tests you couldnt pass ;
&& nowadays people are having sex more then they eat fried chicken ;
dudee really ?
at skool ? you cant even wait till you get home ?
in the backseat of a car ? i mean do you live in box ?
at the park ? NOT ONE person whats to see you naked especially little kids !
in your parents bedroom ? wow do you not have respect for them ?
in your kitchen ? people eat thereeeeeeeee !
in the shower ? arent you suppose to get cleaner in the shower ?
in a house thats getting built ? uhmm thats just nasty . . . i dont want pieces of wood && nails in my booty thats for suree !
&& thats not even close to the number of places people have sex at . . .
come on everyone has hormoness && urges !
but c'mon people control them !
&& just pray to God to help you out ;

i prefer to hold unto my "treasure box" lol ;
i just dont want anythang in meh !
&& people have the nerve to have abortions ;
if you cant handle having kids than you shouldnt be having sex ;
but thats another subject ;
also ive made a promise to my parents && i have a abstinent ring ;
&& i plan on keeping that promise !
dudee i DO NOT WANT to have the whose the baby daddy drama ?
no sir i have more respect for myself than to show up on jerry springer or the maury show ;
but i know people make mistakes ;
but then to do it again ?
wth ? sit down . . .
LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKES !


drugs !

what a stupid thing to do . . .
the bible doesnt clearly state dont do drugs ;
but it says "be imitators of me, as i am of Christ" - 1 Corinthians 11:1 ;
so i know for a sure Jesus wouldnt do drugs ;
&& lets not be stupid && "ask how do you know yur not him ?" ;
alot of people only try it once && never do it again ;
but why waste time trying it the first time ?
&& then they are those who try it && get addicted && then have a hard time quitting ;
you should have never tried it in the first place . . .
&& then they are those who love it && keep on doing it ;
i pray that you will eventually learn ;
&& then there are people like meh that wouldnt even dare touch it ;

weed . . .
yeaa its probably one of the "safest" drugs ;
"its just a herb that doesnt harm you"
WRONG ! it might not affect you at the moment ;
well actually it does because you DO NOT smell fresh after smoking weed ;
but it really affects you in the long term when you get older ;
there's a reason why its illegal people ;
just say NO drugss ! lol


alcohol !

"for those who sleep sleep at night, and those who get drunk are drunk at night. but, since we belong to the day, let us be sober . . ." - 1 Thessalonians 5:7-8
this is the one of the three that is the least bad in my eyes ;
drinking a sip of this && that isnt that bad ;
but to the point when you get drunk ?
no sir ;
after a drink or two for some people its hard for them to stop ;
so the best way to avoid it is to just not drink at all ;


"but when you follow your own inclinations your lives will produce these evil results : impure thoughts, eagerness for lustful pleasure . . . drunkenness, wild parties, and all that sort of thing. let me tell you again as i have before, that anyone living that sort of life will not inherit the kingdom of God" - Galatians 5 : 19-21 ;
that bible verse is self-explanatory ;

the bible also says, "you have no right to criticize your brother or look down on him" - Romans 14:10 ;
so whatever you chose to do i have no place to judge ;
im not perfect && i do sin also ;
they may not be the same sin but that doesnt make it okay for meh to judge you ;
so what do i look like being a imperfect person judging another imperfect person ?

i just perfer NOT to have sex do drugs nor drink ;
why dont you join meh too ?
its never too late ! (;

a strong passionate affection for another person ;

they say if you think && have a heart like a nigguh you wont get played . . .
well screw that ;
if you think or have a heart like meh you would know bettuh then to get played ;
[just thought i would put that out there] ;

my parents always told meh to wait till im OUT of college to get into relationships ;
uhmm i plan on being in college for bout 8 years . . .
sooo that would be when around 25 years old till my first boyfrand :o ;
yeaaa bout that . . .

but so far im doing a good job listening to my parents ;
never had a REAL boyfrand ;
never had my first kiss ;
&& NO im not prude !
but i am reserved ;
just never had the chance . . . well actucally i have ;
just never had the right boy come along ;
[ feel free to change that (; ]
the reaction i always get when i tell people "what your 15 && you havent ? . . . why ?"
well i just answered your question !

im not the one for relationships ;
i know im not mature to handle one [even though some people my age say i am] ;
i always seem to give out advice about relationships ;
they say "experience is the best teacher" ;
that is NOT true . . .
yes its a good teacher ;
but not necessarily the best ;
most people dont think im the best too talk to about relationships because i never been through one but doesnt mean ishhhhh ;
soo how do i know what im talking bout ? i just have talent ! (;

i dont have time for nigguhs ;
[lol i felt kool saying that]
they're a waste of time ;
&& waste of energy ;
they NEVER work ! [for our age]
[except for the high skool sweethearts which is like 1%-2% of people which alot of them end up in divorce] ;


i know yur response is probably you never know until you try ;
&& my response is why put your self through all that headache when the percentage of yall actually making it work is extremely LOW ;
huh ? explain to meh . . .
why be in a relationship if your not gonna married ?
your answer is to exprience love ;
screw loveeee ;
im not ready for love ;
i have my life to live before i fall in love ;
"love never fails" ;
if you ever truely love someone you NEVER stop loving the person ;
so dont say you love somone if you cant see yourself being with the person for the rest of your life ;
i want my first love to be the person i marry ;
would you like it if your spouse loved you but still had love for his/her first love ?
i know i wouldnt . . .
actually TRUE love around my age is really rare ;
most people say "i love you" after few months or weeks of even DAYS into a relationship ;
what is that ?!?! move around . . .
yeaa you never know love until your in it ;
do you know the difference between having strong feelings for someone && love ?
because most people need to ;
if i ever told you i loved you ;
more than likely i meant it ;
but NOT on that level . . .

i truely believe if you genuinely really love somesone they will love you back ;
i know some people reading this are like :
"what the hell does she know ? she doesnt know anything or she's too young to know what she's talking about." ;
but i bet i KNOW what im talking about && i bet i have a higher level of thinking than you ;) ;
&& to meh age is nothing but how many years you lived on this earth ;
someone people say your maturity levels && wisdom grows as your age does. . .
but arent some adults really immature? [because i know some ]
&& wisdom comes from God ;
&& God can give you wisdom to you whenever he pleases . . .

well im just talking from point of view ;
you dont have to agree with meh ;
im just tired of things i see nowadays . . .
just wanted to finally to express the way i feel bout that thing called . . . LOVE ;

my destinyyy ;

"The Future Belongs To Those Who Believe In The Beauty Of Their Dreams".


okayyy this is where i say how i want my future to turn out ;
mkayy well im currently 15 and a sophomore at cypress woods high skool ;
have only two more years of high skool =/ ;
i wanted to skip a grade . . .
but realized i wanted to for all the wrong reasons ;
so instead immuh just take alot of ap classes to enter college to maybe be classified as a college sophomore ;

anywayss these next two years i NEED to && WILL focused on skool ;
currently top 20% of my class ;
ranked 218 out of 1093 to be exact ;
i guess you could say thats good but not good enough ;
i wanted to graduate high skool top 10% ;
&& i will get there AMEN ;

after high skool going to college ;
i want to go baylor university or ucla [university of california los angeles] ;
but because of how much $$$ that costs . . .
might not go there unless i get a good paying scholoarship ;
my daddy wants meh to go to prairie view a&m university since i'd get faculty student discount ;
CHEAP i know !

anywayss i want to major in pyschology ;
maybe minor in business or fashion ;
&& then go to med skool [not sure which one yet] ;
to become a pyschiatrist ;
soundss stressful ?
yess but its worth it ;
when i get those big checks in the mail there will be a kool-aid smile on my face ;
after that i will have to do my residency for about 2 yearsss ;

i want my own clinic ;
i want to reach out to mostly adolescents ;
most adults dont realize how stressed out teenagers are now a daysss ;
but then again most people dont like to admit their problems ;
&& most parents dont know whats going on with their kids these days . . .
but one way or another immuh reach out to them ;

of course i also want to reach out to adults too ;
its good to have a motivation when having a dream ;
i know a adult personally that has Christ in her ;
but occasionally has her down falls ;
even though medication helps . . . it isnt enough ;

sometimes people just need people to help them && express their feelings to ;
people dont realize that depression hurts everyone around them ;
i want to be that person && make a personal connections to my patients ;

anywayss around 25 i want my husband to look for mehhh ;
hahahaha but im serious i want to get married by 26 ;
have bout 3 kids ;
about 3 years apart . . .

&& then i want to die around in my 80's ;
&& then go to heaven ;
&& live eternally right next to GOD ;

&& this is ALL possible through Christ ;

frandssssss ;

whatss the difference between a friend && a acquaintance ;
well a FRIEND is A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts
&& a ACQAINTANCE is a person known to one, but usually not a close friend ;

growing up i never had real friendss ;
i might of thought so back then but looking back they werent ;
i used to be open to anyone && call them my friend ;
i always struggled picking the right people to befriend mehh ;
as soon as i saw someone new to my skool i'd befriend quickly without getting to know them first ;
stupiddd huh ?
i guess i just wanted a best friend that i could talk on the phone for hrsss ;
someone my parents both liked ;
someone that i could go shopping with ;
someone thats worth my $$$$ ;
someone that understood every aspect of mehh ;
someone that did the rights things ;
someone i could actually trust ;
someone i could tell i love them without feeling uncomfortable ;
someone that is perfectly imperfect ;
someone that loves my flaws && i love theirs ;
whether it be boy or girl ;
i just want a friend that cares bout meh && i care for them ;
to be honesttt have i found that friend ?
NOPE !

im real friendly ;
but that doesnt make you my friend ;
&& that sure doesnt mean get comfortable with meh quickly ;
i just dont call anyone my best friend ;
you have to mean something to mehhh ;
if your reading this && wondering if im talking bout you . . .
more than likely there's something wrong with our friendshippp ;
hmmm lets fix it !

more than likely yur just one of my acqaintances !

"he that walketh with wise men shall be wise: but a companion of fools shall be destroyed" - Proverbs 13 : 20

huhhh that verse is powerful !
its self-explanatory ;

those things i put in my mouth ;

best chipss ever ; hot funyuns !

goshh get yur mind out the gutter !
im talking about fooddddddddd !

yall are probably like why is she writing a post about food ?
but yall dont seem to understand i loveeeeeeeeeeee food ;
its like my freaking anti-drug ; my freaking anti-depressant ; my freaking get away !
i put almost nothing above food ;
anytime someone gets meh food my face lits up ;
ask anyoneeee ;
the best way to win my heart over ISNT by being sweet or giving meh $$$ ;
its by giving mehh food ;
oooooo if you ever cooked for meh i'll remember you for the rest of my lifeee ;
i thank GOD i have fast metabolism because i would be like 23492340823742384792358325 pounds ;


best drank ever ; sobe green tea !

one of the few things i regret in life happened in summer 06 ;
i usedd to starve myself ;
like i wouldnt eat till 6:00 everyday && when i finally did eat i would eat very little ;
i just used to use the excuse "im fastinggg" ;
i think i lost 20 poundsssss ;
whyyyyyyyyy did i ?
i DIDNT think i was fat ;
i just thought my stomach wasss ;
&& i thought the best way to loose my stomach fat was by not eatinggg ;
i mean i did get what i want but i was just skin && bones !
i wouldnt sayy i had anorexia nervosa cause it wasnt that serious && it only lasted for like 2 monthsss but hell . . .

i got over that !
&& i weigh 113 poundss proudlyyy ;

now i look back at it ;
&& im like WHAT THE HELL was i thinkingggg ?
i missed out on manyyy deliciouso mealssss !

i lovee all sorts of food ;

chinese ; itailian ; nigerian ; soul ; indian ; japanese ; english ; spicy ; you nameee it && i'll try ittttttttttttt ! =]
i dont discriminate towards food ;


if yall couldnt tell ; i was hella happy to eat that roasted turkey !

deathhhhh ;

yahhh thatss my mommy christinah yemisi sadiku up there ;
so i havee exprienced death in the worse way ;
obviously i havent died yet so i guess its not the worse wayyy ;
but my mommy died on june 9 2002 from breast cancer ;
i used to wonder why God did this to me && my family ;
but i realized that he just wanted to see one of his angels ;
just waiting to that day to reunite with her again . . .

most people dont know that my eldest blood sistuh died ;
when she was a few daysss old ;
all i knew that my parents named her joy && that she would be around 26 yrs old if she was still alive ;

dudeee im not actually scared of death ;
im just scared of dyinggg ;
makess sense ?
well i'll explain for people like peace lol . . .
im not scared of death because i know im going to heaven ;
&& they say heaven is paradise && its nothing compared to anything on earth ;
soo why should i be scared of that ?
but i am scared of dyingg ;
because i HATE painn && i dont wanna die in slowly death ;
but heyyy i cant control the way i die because thats up to God ;
but i can control what happens after life on earth ;
by living my life the right way ;
&& people wonder why im such a "goodie good gurllllllllll" ;

i dont wanna leave this world without impacting someone's life in a good way ;
i wanna die && people grieve about meh not because i died but because they miss how much of a difference i made on them ;
im sure thats how everybody is ;
but sometimes i wonder if if died now would people say r.i.p joyce all over there myspace's && facebook for 3 months && take it off or leave it on their page for ever && always remember meh . . .
hmmmm i just wonder . . .

well im just living my lifee the good way so i can live after death ;

the framework of my life ;

hmmm being a christian . . .
what does that really mean ?
well the dictionary definition is :
of, pertaining to, believing in, or belonging to the religion based on the teachings of Jesus Christ.
but my definition is :
living yur life like Jesus did.
now im not saying fast for 40 days && 40 days night && heal the sick.
but i mean live yur life according to the way God wants it to be.
im not gonna sit here & lie & say its easy.
i remember when i was in 3rd grade & i used to read the bible every morning.
but its like now i cant even do that.

the Lord knows i try.
-i try not to cuss ;
-i try not to get jealous of people ;
-i try to obey my parents ;
-i try not to use the Lords name in vain ;
-i try not to steal ;
-i try to love everyone ;
-i try not to lie ;
-i dont have sex ;
-i try to keep my body as a temple ;
&& i try to do alot of other things to please God
but its not easy AT ALL !

spritual death is the worse type of death.
to be honest christianity isnt a religion to meh ;
because its more than just listening to a bunch of rules ;
its more of having a relationship with God ;
i mean does the buddha actually talk to buddhistss ?
like really c'mon . . .
i take my faith in God serious ;
i mean sometimes i know i dont show it but i really try ;

one of my favorite bible versus growing up was :
"For we walk by faith, not by sight". - 2 Corinthians 5:7 ;

you wonder why i named this post the framework of my life ?
well because Jesus is the fundamental structure of my life.

growing up as child ;

the goverment name is joyce boluwatife sadiku ;
which means the joyful one - what the Lord wants - the honest one ;

born in minna, nigeria on october 30, 1993 ;
came to america when i was two years old ;
- obvisouly i dont remember what happened at the time.


lansdale, pennsylvania [outskirts of philly] ;
-i remember being one of the few black kids in my elementary skool.
-ha i remember my first crushh some white boy tyler.
-i remember the first time i ran away from a dog.
-i remember kinder care daycare.
-i remember wearing a wig for the first time lol no joke .
-i remember new jersey acf .

after 4 yearss there moved to los angeles, california ;
-i remember my first bully candice.
-i remember my mommyyyy.
-i remember Crenshaw Christian Center.
-i remeber going to hollywood.

after 1 year moved to hockley, texas [around the waller area] ;
-i remember that delicious hispanic boy johnny [lol dont ask].
-i remember walking to skool everyday.
-i remember petting a stray dog for the 1st time.
-i remember all the women who used to come to my house.
-i remember giving my live to Christ at 9 years old.

&& after bout 9 months moved to cypress, texas [outskirts of houston] && been living here for about 6 yearss now ;
- to manyyy things to remember.

if you calulated all of that && you'll realized im 15 yearss old at the moment ;