life is like a game . . .

pacman maybe ?

i like to think so ;

i mean those little 4 monsters are out to get pacman ;

just like there are always people that are out to get you ;

people that dont have anything bettuh to do but to try && bring you down ;

haters maybe ? satan maybeee ?

yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ;

if your not careful while playing pacman you'll get eaten by those monsters ;

just like if yur not careful in life those haters or satan might bring you down ;

but at least you have 3 lives before you die ;

just like how alot of people have near death experiecences even though it might be more than 3 ;

but you get what im trynna say right ?

everyone has their moments when they feel all alone in this world && no one there to help you && feel like everyones out to get you ;

just like in pacman no one's helping you && those monsters are there chasing you ;

those white big dots are there so pacman can eat them && also eat the monsters ;

just like in life you have the ability to never let satan win or to never let haters bring you down ;

or maybe life is like :

trouble !

so you need four little pegs to enter into that "safe zone" . . .

well consider the "safe zone" as heaven . . .

so even though you only come into this world on your own & leave it on your own ;

its always good to help those your close to live a good life && get into heaven ;

just consider the other 3 pegs as your close frands ;

oncee you get into the safe zone nothing can bring you back ;

its hard getting into the safe zonee though ;

just like its hard to do whats right && get into heaven ;

you press the dice to see how many spaces you move && sometimes you have to go back home because your opponent might have to take yur spot ;

[its kinduh hard to explain if you've never played trouble before]

just like in live there are always obstacles that get in the way ;

but its always good to keep your goals in mind to motivate you into not letting the obstacles get in yur way ;

just like in trouble the only goal is to get all your 4 pegs into the "safe zone" ;

&& sometimes you just have to fight real hard for what you want because sometimes yur not the only one fighting for it ;

well thank GOD life isnt really just like pacman or trouble ;

some people have wayy more than 3 chances to live ;

&& that sad thing is that when people go through near death experiences they still take life for granted . . .

if yur lucky you'll find good frands to help you out when you feel alone ;

well at least a dice doesnt control what you can or cant do in life ;

people you DO !

i mean yea you cant control how you die or when you die ;

but you control how you live ;

well life isnt a race to see who gets into heaven first ;

its just matters that you get there ;

soo maybe im not the best in analogies . . .

but you get my drift right ?

appearance isnt what its cracked up to be ;

ask this question to yourself ?

do more people want to act like you ;

or look like you ?

what i dont understand these days is that what people would do just to look good ;

i mean what defines looking "good" ?

if God made you a certain way then isnt that good enough ?

why must you change yurself just to look good ;

i mean i do it sometimes by wearing makeup or wearing something that might reveal a little too much ;

but to the point where you harm your body by going to tanning beds, starving yourself, getting surgery ?

thats NOT going to make you look bettuh ;

if anything it will make you look worse ;

i mean some people do look better with breast implants or getting tanner . . .

but really ? there was a reason why you had a 32 a cup or a reason why you were pale ;

what does self-confidence mean ?

realistic confidence in one's own judgment, ability, power, etc. ;

when you start thinking you look "good" is when others will think the same ;

because confidence does attract the opposite sex ;

but not to the point when you start getting cocky && being in denial ;

being conceited would be having extruh baggage && you wearing a bikini ;

having confidence would be having extruh baggage && wearing a one suit ;

&& lacking confidence would be having extruh baggage && wearing shorts with a big tee over your bathin suit ;

since the difference ?

i hate it when people put up a front ;

alot of those people who act hard are really soft && sensitive ;

when people say hurtful things dont try to front && act like it didnt hurt you ;

instead of "acting" get some confidence && make those words NOT hurt you ;

i mean when people say you look ugly or say your fat ;

if YOU know your not ugly && not fat then who are they to say otherwise ?

but if you really think your not all that pretty makeup wont hurt but lets not get obesseive with it ;

if you think your fat excercise wont hurt you ;

most of the people who think they are all that && they think they're sexy are usually the ones with the lowest self-esteem ;

people who just bump their gums && love to talk ish

are usually the ones who are all bout talk && not backing it up ;

look if you cant fight dont act like you can ;

[trust im talking from exprience but at least i've learned my lesson unlike other people]

i mean you probably dont wannuh look like a punk ;

but most of the time 2/3 you could of avoided the whole situation ;

dont put yourself in drama you dont belong it ;
or just dont even be involved in drama ;
just try to avoid it as much as you can ;

manyeee why do people think the way you dress && the type of swagg you have is sooooooooooooo important ?

because its NOT ;

yeaa its kool if you can put a nice outfit together && wear it ;

but if you not going to be a model or career in the fashion industry ;

then why the hell does it matter soo much ?

i know for a fact how cute you dress in high school wont matter when you grow up ;

but i bet what type of education you got out of it will ;

wearing the latest sb's or jays or rocking true religion is fly && all ;

but why doesnt anybody think getting straight a's is fly ?
to mehhh it is ;
its nice to add some spunk to yur outfit but not to the point when thats all you focus on ;

dont sit there && talk down on how bad someone dresses ;
if they didnt match or if their outfit isnt cute enough ;
if your not going to buy them clothes then why do you care ?
dont sit there && critize what someone wears ;
you never know if thats all they can afford ;
because i know at some point someone has talked down on your outfit && i know you didnt like it ;
so why do the same to someone else if you know exactly how they are feeling ?
that doesnt make any kind of sense to meh !
if you cant afford the latest things ;
then you DONT need them ;
lets not go rob a bank or steal some clothes from the mall ;
trust its not cute to have shoplifting on your record ;
because lately that seems to be the latest trend ;

but babyyy im not getting into that trend ;

look just be content with the way you look && the way you are !

ap testing . . .

whoo manyee what a day !

been waiting for this day to pass by ;
today i took my world history ap test ;
to be honest it wasnt even hard ;
it was just difficult because i didnt know shizznet !
well except the slave trade && you already know why i know that lol . . .

well you need at least a 3 to pass ;
but most colleges only accept a 4 or 5 ;
before i was like if i dont pass immuh cry ;
but you knoww what ?
im not . . .
i dont deserve a passing grade ;
cause this year instead of studying my notes [that i barely ever took] or the textbook ;
i was studying on how to cheat . . .
sad huh ?
but thats what happens ;
cheaters never prosper ;
so if i pass thank GOD ;
but if i dont i aint trippen life goes on ;
soo even if whap destroyed my gpa at least i stuck through with the class ;

but im not quitting ;
because i know what to expect on the next ap courses i take next year && my senior year ;
the whole time i was in that helluh cold room for bout 4 1/2 hrs i was sitting there thinkin to myself ;
what am i doing with my life ?
all those extruh unimportant things im focused on at the moment arent important ;
[no need to know what those unimportant things are] ;
whats really important at the moment besides God of course is. . . .

getting into my top 5 colleges of my choice which are :
-columbia university ;
-university of california at los angeles ;
-university of texas at austin;
-baylor university ;
-houston baptist university ;
[i tried to do the skool colors]


&& yes those are the order of how much i wannuh get into them ;
i have MIGHT not have the grades at the moment but i have the ambition to ;
&& hopefully this time next year i'll be able to say i have the grades ;


whap = world history advanced placement ;

iPAINT

so this year i discovered something new that im interested in ;
PAINTING !

whether it be on paper or on t-shirt ;
i just love touching paint ;
&& getting my fingers dirty ;
i make shirts as you can see ;
if you want one i only charge $10 ;
i know im not the best but i think im pretty decent ;
but its up to your judgement ;
someone once told meh not to pick up a paint bottle again lol ;
but their just hatersss && those people never prosper =] ;

&& these are some examples of my artwork :

first shirt i ever made for myself && quote is from one of t.i songs ;
im NOT illiterate because i NOW know how to spell original lol ;
i made it for rita to wear for her boyfrand's game [messed up a little] ;
i made this shirt for my sister for one of her christmas gifts ;
doesnt my toes look so delicious that makes you wanna eat 'em ? (;

can you find the error ? . . . i need to pay attention in english huh ?

swine flu ?

manyee this flu thingyy is scaring mehhh ;
alot of skool events are getting cancelled ;
all u.i.l thingss are cancelled ;
track regionals has been reschedule ;
&& other extra curricular thingss are being cancelled or being reschedule like baseball ;
&& now they might cancel the drake concert ?
but i aint trippen anyways cause they ran out of tickets . . .

i heard it came from those mexican immigrants ;
like forreals ?
if yur gonna cross the darn border come cleannn !
ughhhh we dont need i am legend or the black death to happen again;

&& this its airborne . . .
so if someone just coughs on mehh && isnt even aware they haveee it ;
BOOM ! i would have it . . .
but GOD forbid ;
one of the symptoms is a headache ;
OMGGG ! i had one last night :o ;

im actually sorta scared ;
some hispanic gurl in our skool has it ;
she was shaking && wearing an oxygen mask on && was rushed to the hospital ;
our district is suppose to have a meeting deciding if there going to shut down ALL skools in cy-fair district for 10 days . . .
i kinduh hope we do cause i need an effing break ;
but then again our summer would prolly be shorter ;


&& those darn animals up there is where this swine influenza originated from ;
even the Bible warns us not to eat pork ;
hmmmmmmmmm maybe this is a warning that the world is comming to an end ;
but i cant help myself from eatting pork becausee it tastes sooo good . . .
but anywayss back to this virsus ;
mayneee they dont even have a cure for it yet ;

now i cant even bum off of other peoples food ;
&& now i have to wash my handsss =/ ;
jk ;
i alwaysss do (;