ghettO much ?

watch this video :

im just glad my parents actually thought bout my future when naming meh ;
what do i look like with the name Bufanaquishria or Shataniana ?
i have somewhere to be in life & i want my name to be rememebered by ;
but not because of how ghetto it sounds . . .
but because of what i did ;
its actually sad but true that people do judge you by what yur name is or sounds like ;
my full name is joyce boluwatife sadiku ;
&& yes all three names have meaning ;

not parts of my parents name combined together ;
joyce means the joyful one ;
boluwatife means what the Lord wants ;
&& sadiku means the honest man ;

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eye for eye ?

right butt cheek for a left butt cheek?
why cant people just be the bigger person ?
why must every be out to get each other ?
why must people still be childish in their ways ?
why do people like to put others in misery ?
why cant people just forgive each other ?
why must people make a vendetta list ?
getting revenge on someone isnt going to change what the person did to you ;
yes they might feel yur pain ;
but if you didnt like the pain they gave you ;
why would you want them to go what you went through ?
maybe its just cause yur heart is harden ;
people always wander why bad things happen in this world . . .
its that people just cant love each other ;
just because your life isnt going the way you like ;
doesnt mean you have to ruin someone else's just because someone did you wrong in the past ;
why cant people leave the past in the past ?

what goes around DOES come around ;
so just let karma be ;
why do you have to give someone the karma ?
leave that up to God ;

i mean sometimes it just kills meh how people do me wrong ;
& sometimes it just kills meh not to do anything ;
BUT that doesnt mean i dont or cant stand up for myself ;
best believe i can ;
but sometimes its just bettuh to just walk & just get out of drama ;
maybe i just think these things just because i would like to live in a world thats pefect ;
hmm sometimes i hate facing reality . . .
but maybe when people learn to love each other ;
then there would be world peace !

"don't repay evil for evil. wait for the Lord to handle the matter" - Proverbs 20 : 22

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summer oh nine ;

been waiting for this season all year long ;
&& here it is . . .
isnt cracked up to what i wanted it to be ;
isnt summer suppose to be all bout :
getting tan. late night phone calls. shopping. partying. NO drama. going to the beach. chillaxing. traveling. wild 'n out. summer flings ?

no ma'am not my summer . . .

not trying to get darker ;
hmm i do stay up all night but not exciting ;
hard to shop with no $$$ ;
havent been able to go one grad party this year ;
thanks to certain people that cant let things go there seems to be drama in this life of mine BUT i already said bye to it !
thanks to the dirty beach galvanston no sir ;
done a little too MUCH chilling ;
thanks to the recession no wasting $$$ on traveling places ;
thanks to my strict parents none of that ;
dudes are lame & cant see what they missing out on ;

dont have many goals for this summer ;
but here are the few :
1). read ALOT of books to expand on my vocabulary ;
2). get a freaking j.o.b !
3). make reading the bible a daily routine ;

yes those are the ONLY three things i want out of this summer ;
pray for meh that all of these goals come to past ;
please & thank you ;

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sophomore year ;

hmmm this year as been sumthing else ;

let meh pour out all of my memories . . .

soo the beginning of this skool year ;

i wore weavee for the first timee ;

<--- thats what i wore the first day ;

i was getting it hahaha jk ;

hmm my classes were aight :

i took training first semester && food technology second semester ;

algebra 2 ; sculpture ; world history ap [hardest class EVER !] ; 2nd lunch ; english k ; biology ; 1st semester photo journalism && track the second semester ; [yes that was the order too]

peace get together happened ;

hahaha that was tooo much fun ;

i had fun on labor day celebrating peace's 15th b day ;

haha i met so many different africans ;

yeaa those are few of the many pictuhs i took ;

but that was fun ;

the food was great thanks to faith && her mom ;

then ike happen ;

maynee that was the best vacation

ever ;

late nightss talking on the phone on 3-way to bascially everyoneee ;
hahaha thats when i usedd like quentin ;
[dudee in the white wifebeater]

&& i actually thought maybe just maybee ;

haha not for so long ;

but uhh thats how the hurrican in the looked like right before it came ;

october 1st came around . . .

nigeria's independence day ;

so mehh && rita decide to wear our african attires ;

hahaha manyee did we get many stares at && questions ;
i was a little nervous at first but i had fun at the end ;

kinduh suck only having one other african you kool with at yur skool ;

&& shes a senior . . .

wonder who immuh do it with next year or if im going to do it at all ;

homecomming '08 ;

the homecomming game was fun ;

i think we were aganist cy-springs && i think

we won ;

but correct meh if im wrong ;

so i had four guys that asked meh to be their dates ;

two of them i said yes to && the other two i said no to ;

but in the end i ended up not having NONE ;

no need into getting into details how that all went down ;

but that was a fun night !

you know dancing . . . well actually i didnt dance much but i did here && there ;

but they had good popcorn && cookies . . . yummmmm ;

anyways i remember afterwards me brigette william && crystal [didnt really know her at the time] went to ihop ;
didnt even get to order none because my step mom made me leave && come home early ;

but besides that i had a great day that day !

then it was my birthday ;

october 30th ;

the day i turn 15 . . . hmm i had a great day ;

havent heard the phrase "happy birthday" soo much in my life though ;

william gave meh cupcakes brigette made meh a cookie cake && rita made meh brownies ;

&& some people gave me some dollars here && there ;

i didnt get much but i still had a great day ;

&& i went out to eat w/ the fam at shogun ;

that restuarant has the best fried rice !

football season was out && basketball season was in ;

had fun at all the games i went to ;

at the beginning i was a trainer for gurls but then the coach didnt like meh for a dumb reason so i had to switch ;
it was fun while it lasted though ;

i mean one day i got to miss skool && go to 1st colony mall && went to hightower high skool after the gurls played a game ;

&& there was another time i went to travis high skool && another time went to lamar consolidated ;

&& all the bus rides were fun ;

but then i switched over to the boys team ;

hmmmmmmm i loved training the boys b-ball games ;

there was someone on the sophomore team i liked ;

number 5 ;
wait i think that was his number hahahaha ;

then it was election time ;

wow that was sumthin elseee ;

hahaha so many racist moments ;
realized alot of other people dont respect other peoples opinions ;

well i aint trippen ;

because we ended up winning anywaysss ;

change we believe in ;

people talking bout the world will end when he comes into power ;

talk bout haters ;

barack obama '08 ;

hmmm then it was thanksgiving break ;

stayed with my sistuh during the break ;
hmmm black friday ;

woke up sooo early just for some sales that werent even worth it ;

but uhmmmm i went shopping though ;
got meh some cutee outfits ;

went over to my bestie peace's house for the 1st timeee ;
manyeee she gave meh some smoked turkeyy && it was good !

&& she had the nerve to not bring some more to church lol ;

then it was getting close to christmas ;

haha i remember when i bake cookies from scratch ;

mayneee it turn out good but i prolly put too much flour ;

then finals came . . . only got to exempt one final which was whap ;
hmm but it was a fun week ;

all of them were easy execept for biology ;

hmm i didnt like my semeseter gradess soo i knew i had to work hard during the second semester ;

[that pictuh was of marcellus paris terrance mehh && deonte after finals]

christmas break ;

on christmas we had few familes come over ;

i mean it was straight ;

hmm i got a book 4rm my sister a ipod shuffle from my step mom && $50 from my dad ;

hmmm not much apparently ;

sorta hated the beginning of the break ;
but then again christmas isnt bout gifts ;

but the rest of the break me my sistuh && my dad decide to have a road trip to orlando && miami ;

went to disney world in orlando ;

my dad decided to pick epcot [worse && most boriest park of disney world] ;

me && my sistuh were sorta pist but we made the best out of it ;

&& then went to went to holy land ;

kinduh boring too but oh wells ;

then we went to miami to visit the cuzins ;

had fun with them as alwayss ;

spent new years with them ;

took 17 hours to get back home from miami ;

then i moved houses ;

it was time to move out of my old

house that i lived in for bout

5 years ;
[ longest ive ever stayed in a house ; ]

hmmm i was excited to get out of that neighborhood ;

i mean even though i moved aross the street into a different neighborhood it was still better ;

i hateddd that house ;

too many bad memories in that house ;

from the time i jumped from the top of my house to the bottom of my house to the cops && ambulance coming over another time ;

basketball season was out && track season was in ;

i quit training for basketball to join the track team ;

i wanted to run 400 && mile relay's ;

cause i did that in middle skool && i was good at it too ;

but then i realize i wasnt as good as i was back then ;

so i just ended up being the manager && doing concession stands ;

which didnt last long lol ;

so i was just in the period for no reason bascially ;

but i had fun w/ all the gurls ;

then it was spring break ;

hmm stayed over my sistuhs place again ;

hmm went shopping ;

went to the rodeo for the first time ;

im telling you to try the smoked turkeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ;

ooo i was in heaven while eating that !

had good meals ;

my sistuh knows how to throw down in the kitchen ;

nothing spectular happened but it was kool ;

hmm ashley's b-day party ;

that was fun ;

they had great food ;

but there was drama . . .

no need to say what the drama was ;

all im going to say that is life isnt bettuh when you do unGodly things . . .

then it was taks season ;

ohhh gosh taks is a complete waste of time ;

sit in a room && take a test thats untimed ;

i mean every other test that you take in the future is usually timed ;

so whats the point of taking this test thats too easy untimed ?

makes no sense to mehh ;

the only thing i like bout taks is it helps for yur exemptions ;

i got commended on all taks execpt the science one ;

the science was a killer . . .
&& then there was the ap exam testing . . .

but you should of already seen my entry on that . . .

then it was swine flu . . .

oh Lord ;

what a nightmare ;

soo many different rumors ;

&& guess what ?

the swine flu is just like any other flu ;

that was stupidd ish right there ;

probably did it to take the attention off of this recession we going through ;

but i mean it did work ;

but after some weeks everything went back to normal ;

waste of time && worry . . .

election time again ;

only this time it was for the student body at our skool ;

so i was running for junior class secretary ;

mayneee i worked my butt off to win ;

made six shirts && made 2239482390483209 cup cakess ;

&& posted up big posters around my skool ;

in only to find out that . . . i didnt win ;

but i mean there was like 6 other ppl running so i did have alot of competition ;

sum gurl thats ranked 1st in our class won ;

&& i really wanted to win too ;

to be honest not to try && change the skool ;

just to have something to have on my resume when appling to colleges ;
so the last week of skool came ;

finals && water balloon fightss ;

people who got caught with them && water guns got suspensions && lost exemptions ;

sucked to be them !

i exempted all finals but one [food technology] ;

i ended up having all A's && one B [whap] for the yearly average && for my last six weeks ;

i was actually quite proud of myself ;

but all thanks goes to God ;

had fun during finals week ;

one day got caught leaving the campus ;

had to dip out the ap office as soon as the ap's werent looking ;

wasnt trying to jeopardize my exemptions ;

when comparing this skool year to my freshman year :

ive changed who i hunged out at skool ;

will be changing again since i mostly hunged out with seniors ;

my bestfrand changed thank GOD ;

now they're brigette[left] && peace[right] ;

boy status still the same hahahahahahaha ;

grades have improved ;

motivation to keep doing whats right has increased ;

the way i dressed changedd ;

the way i did my hair changedd && looked better [my opinion] ;

found a new hobby : painting ;

tried alot of new things ;

didnt care what people thought anymore ;

relationship with God became stronger ;

balanced life bettuh ;

&& had a different experience ;

i left out ALOT of thingss ;

but these are the ones that stick out to mehh the most ;

hmmm had a great year overall ;
hope its bettuh for my junior year ;

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