august first two thousand && eight ;

a year & one day i added this gurl name Peace Oyebola Oyetunji on myspace ;
this past year has been something different ;
she's one of those people who make you question yurself why you associate yourself with them ?
& till this day i still dont know why . . .
even though i only known her for a year ;
she's knows meh the most ;
she's one of those people that you click with fast ;
even though she does ALOT of things that i dont like or approve of ;
she's still my main ;
i wish she wasnt self-conscience ;
i want her to know that she is beautiful inside & out !

i cannot stand her obsessive crave of things :
especially of kanye west ;
especially of the number 50 ;
especially with the number 19
especially with 'ol boy ;
especially with cheese & chocolate ;
especially with little kids . . . yes PEDIAFILE ALERT !

even though im usually giving her advice she actually gives good advice too ;
i wish she was stronger than she is . . .
Christ wise & emotion wise ;
she digusts meh with her hugly african accent ;
i hope this friendship actually lasts a lifetime ;
even though i had my doubts . . .

no matter how much we fight ;
no matter how hugly she is ;
no matter how nasty she is ;
no matter how much she talks ;
no matter how flirtatious she is ;
no matter how much she cusses ;
no matter how much she never lets go ;
no matter how disrespectful she is to her rents ;
no matter how much she gossip ;
no matter how much little things gets to meh ;
i still have mad l♥ve for this gurl ;

but i do apologize for talking down on you ;
but i do apologize for thinking lower than you ;
but i do apologize for saying hurtful words ;
but i do apologize for not caring as much ;
&& i do apologize for anything in the future ;
no matter what i say can NEVER sum up our frienship ;




check out : peacewest.blogspot.com

&retrobarbie♥ ;

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William A. Romero ;

this is the first pictuh we ever took ;

mayneee fool this my nigguh right here ;
even though he "claims" to be el salvadorian ;
he's still my dirty mexicannn :) !
hmmm mehh & him been kool for 2 years now ;
sooo he's real kool people ;
i mean he can aggravates meh ALOT ;
he's still my nigguh on the reals ;
i loveee giving him BIG hugs . . . even though he dreads 'em ;
but yeaaa like he said i do plan on being in his wedding ;
i like how we used both lived in the same area ;
he was raised in compton while i lived in los angeles ;
i loveee the compliments he gives mehhh ;
& if it wasnt for him i wouldnt have never met crystal ;

this shows how much i loveee him cause i made him a shirt for freee ;

i love our heart to heart conversationsss ;
i love how were both nosey even though he doesnt like to admit it ;
i love how he actually takes time to listen whatever pointless things i say ;
i like how he is real ;
i love how he always have food at his house ;
i love his mom ;
i love all the rides he gives meh ;

i dont like how he lies ;
i dont like how he's over-protective ;
i dont like how he doesnt eat healthy ;
i dont like how he can be negativeee ;
i dont like how he doesnt like his step dad ;
i dont like how he over re-acts & gets mad easily ;

but i love William Alexander Romero overral ;

this is the last pictuh we took so far . . .

check out : famexcash.blogspot.com

&retrobarbie♥ ;

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what if ?

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keeping it 110% ;

lmaoooo this video is too funny ;

you have to watch it !

excuse his or her french ;

so this video just had meh thinking that . . .

i am getting sick & tired of people calling meh negative ;

i dont see the point of acting like life is peaches & cream ;

there's a difference between being real & being negative ;

being real is looking at reality & stating the truth ;

& being negative is when there is still hope & you just shut it down ;

another thing :

i used to always tell myself if i cant say sumthing to someones face i wont say it at all ;

if i had a problem with someone i would ALWAYS confront them bout it ;

or if i heard my named in someones mouth i would ALWAYS confront them bout it also ;

cause who are they for meh to be scared of ?

if you aint God i do not fear you ;

but this past year it seemed like i would hear sumthing but never said nothing ;

maybe its because it didnt phase meh ;

or more than likely its because i didnt wannuh start drama ;

but i now i have come to realization that the drama had already been started when they open their mouth & my name was in their vocabulary !

but i realized that if people have something to say just say it to there face ;

& it makes yur life & their life easier ;

trust because if not thats how drama usually starts ;

but the difference between me & you is that :

i at least wont lie about what was said ;

i know im not perfect ;

& far from it ;

so i know i might say or do things that doesnt please you ;

but hun i do not live to please you !

but if you do have problem with meh just tell mehh ;

i rather talk things through than fight ;

& maybe i would try to change whatever the issue bout meh is if i agree with you ;

but if you just say it behind my back ;

thats when i get heated & go off ;

alot of people havent seen the real hot-tempered side of meh ;

& theres no reason for you to see it either ;

just keep it one hunit ten & i'll do the same ;

just know if you say things like im ugly to my face or behind my face ;

that ishh dont phase mehhh at all !

cause i know im beautiful ;

just thought i would put that out there because i hear that alot !

but if you decide to continue to keep my beautiful name in yur mouth ;

i hope you choke on it ! (:

&retrobarbie♥;

& stay tuned for the next entry . . .

one by one . . .

i feel like people just keep leaving my side ;

i use to have that mentality " eff you ! i can find someone to replace you " ;

i still have it but maybe thats why i feel like im loosing the close people around me ;

maybe its because i act like i dont care bout people ;

but i really do ;

i just dont show it . . .

the expression i usually show really is anger ;

dont really like expressing how i feel ;

yeaaa i know thats a problem ;

& i know i should practice what i preach ;

because i usually say its bettuh to talk things through ;

but i always have a feeling people dont like listening to what i say ;

which explains why i keep my deep feelings within ;

until someone asks which most people dont . . .

i usually only say speak up when something is wrong with my friendships when its too late ;

& when i say its too late i mean when we're already drifting & more than likely whatever i say is not going to fix anything ;

but shouldnt the other person care enough to say something ?

throughout all the type of friends i have ;

i've always changed my bestfriend ;

i know moving alot has a factor in it ;

but ive been living in texas for about 7 years ;

& i have already changed my besfriend like 4 or 5 timess ;

hmmm but one time i heard on the christian chanel :

" not to hold on to people & some people are just for a season " !

so i know there's a reason why im always switching out close people to meh ;

but sumtimes i wonder is it my fault ? or is it theres ? or maybe its both ?

i need HELP !

i tried the whole "one deep" thing . . .

& i realized you cant live in this big evil world without people to help you through yur life ;

no matter what people say friends DO have a big impact on your life ;

so just know if you want to get the best out of life life you need good people to help you ;

cause the bad people would just make it harder for you ;

or maybe its because i pick the wrong friends ;

& later realize i shouldnt have been their friend . . .

because they're a bad fluenence ;

i dont wanuuh surround myself with people that dont wannuh get the same thing in life as i do ;

i mean like i dont want friends who waste their life doing "useless" thingss !

but anyways . . .

next year im not going to have much people to talk to at skool ;

because i mainly hang out with seniors at skool this past skool year ;

but no biggie ;

cause i am frienly & like meeting new people ;

i do want new friends but not to replace the ones i have ;

just to surround myself with new things & people ;

im going to hang unto all the friends i have at the momentreal tight until i feel its time for meh to let go . . .

is it yur time for meh to let go ?

&retrobarbie♥ ;

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ghettO much ?

watch this video :

im just glad my parents actually thought bout my future when naming meh ;
what do i look like with the name Bufanaquishria or Shataniana ?
i have somewhere to be in life & i want my name to be rememebered by ;
but not because of how ghetto it sounds . . .
but because of what i did ;
its actually sad but true that people do judge you by what yur name is or sounds like ;
my full name is joyce boluwatife sadiku ;
&& yes all three names have meaning ;

not parts of my parents name combined together ;
joyce means the joyful one ;
boluwatife means what the Lord wants ;
&& sadiku means the honest man ;

&retrobarbie.♥-

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eye for eye ?

right butt cheek for a left butt cheek?
why cant people just be the bigger person ?
why must every be out to get each other ?
why must people still be childish in their ways ?
why do people like to put others in misery ?
why cant people just forgive each other ?
why must people make a vendetta list ?
getting revenge on someone isnt going to change what the person did to you ;
yes they might feel yur pain ;
but if you didnt like the pain they gave you ;
why would you want them to go what you went through ?
maybe its just cause yur heart is harden ;
people always wander why bad things happen in this world . . .
its that people just cant love each other ;
just because your life isnt going the way you like ;
doesnt mean you have to ruin someone else's just because someone did you wrong in the past ;
why cant people leave the past in the past ?

what goes around DOES come around ;
so just let karma be ;
why do you have to give someone the karma ?
leave that up to God ;

i mean sometimes it just kills meh how people do me wrong ;
& sometimes it just kills meh not to do anything ;
BUT that doesnt mean i dont or cant stand up for myself ;
best believe i can ;
but sometimes its just bettuh to just walk & just get out of drama ;
maybe i just think these things just because i would like to live in a world thats pefect ;
hmm sometimes i hate facing reality . . .
but maybe when people learn to love each other ;
then there would be world peace !

"don't repay evil for evil. wait for the Lord to handle the matter" - Proverbs 20 : 22

&retrobarbie♥-

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summer oh nine ;

been waiting for this season all year long ;
&& here it is . . .
isnt cracked up to what i wanted it to be ;
isnt summer suppose to be all bout :
getting tan. late night phone calls. shopping. partying. NO drama. going to the beach. chillaxing. traveling. wild 'n out. summer flings ?

no ma'am not my summer . . .

not trying to get darker ;
hmm i do stay up all night but not exciting ;
hard to shop with no $$$ ;
havent been able to go one grad party this year ;
thanks to certain people that cant let things go there seems to be drama in this life of mine BUT i already said bye to it !
thanks to the dirty beach galvanston no sir ;
done a little too MUCH chilling ;
thanks to the recession no wasting $$$ on traveling places ;
thanks to my strict parents none of that ;
dudes are lame & cant see what they missing out on ;

dont have many goals for this summer ;
but here are the few :
1). read ALOT of books to expand on my vocabulary ;
2). get a freaking j.o.b !
3). make reading the bible a daily routine ;

yes those are the ONLY three things i want out of this summer ;
pray for meh that all of these goals come to past ;
please & thank you ;

&retrobarbie♥-

& stay tuned for the next entry . . .

sophomore year ;

hmmm this year as been sumthing else ;

let meh pour out all of my memories . . .

soo the beginning of this skool year ;

i wore weavee for the first timee ;

<--- thats what i wore the first day ;

i was getting it hahaha jk ;

hmm my classes were aight :

i took training first semester && food technology second semester ;

algebra 2 ; sculpture ; world history ap [hardest class EVER !] ; 2nd lunch ; english k ; biology ; 1st semester photo journalism && track the second semester ; [yes that was the order too]

peace get together happened ;

hahaha that was tooo much fun ;

i had fun on labor day celebrating peace's 15th b day ;

haha i met so many different africans ;

yeaa those are few of the many pictuhs i took ;

but that was fun ;

the food was great thanks to faith && her mom ;

then ike happen ;

maynee that was the best vacation

ever ;

late nightss talking on the phone on 3-way to bascially everyoneee ;
hahaha thats when i usedd like quentin ;
[dudee in the white wifebeater]

&& i actually thought maybe just maybee ;

haha not for so long ;

but uhh thats how the hurrican in the looked like right before it came ;

october 1st came around . . .

nigeria's independence day ;

so mehh && rita decide to wear our african attires ;

hahaha manyee did we get many stares at && questions ;
i was a little nervous at first but i had fun at the end ;

kinduh suck only having one other african you kool with at yur skool ;

&& shes a senior . . .

wonder who immuh do it with next year or if im going to do it at all ;

homecomming '08 ;

the homecomming game was fun ;

i think we were aganist cy-springs && i think

we won ;

but correct meh if im wrong ;

so i had four guys that asked meh to be their dates ;

two of them i said yes to && the other two i said no to ;

but in the end i ended up not having NONE ;

no need into getting into details how that all went down ;

but that was a fun night !

you know dancing . . . well actually i didnt dance much but i did here && there ;

but they had good popcorn && cookies . . . yummmmm ;

anyways i remember afterwards me brigette william && crystal [didnt really know her at the time] went to ihop ;
didnt even get to order none because my step mom made me leave && come home early ;

but besides that i had a great day that day !

then it was my birthday ;

october 30th ;

the day i turn 15 . . . hmm i had a great day ;

havent heard the phrase "happy birthday" soo much in my life though ;

william gave meh cupcakes brigette made meh a cookie cake && rita made meh brownies ;

&& some people gave me some dollars here && there ;

i didnt get much but i still had a great day ;

&& i went out to eat w/ the fam at shogun ;

that restuarant has the best fried rice !

football season was out && basketball season was in ;

had fun at all the games i went to ;

at the beginning i was a trainer for gurls but then the coach didnt like meh for a dumb reason so i had to switch ;
it was fun while it lasted though ;

i mean one day i got to miss skool && go to 1st colony mall && went to hightower high skool after the gurls played a game ;

&& there was another time i went to travis high skool && another time went to lamar consolidated ;

&& all the bus rides were fun ;

but then i switched over to the boys team ;

hmmmmmmm i loved training the boys b-ball games ;

there was someone on the sophomore team i liked ;

number 5 ;
wait i think that was his number hahahaha ;

then it was election time ;

wow that was sumthin elseee ;

hahaha so many racist moments ;
realized alot of other people dont respect other peoples opinions ;

well i aint trippen ;

because we ended up winning anywaysss ;

change we believe in ;

people talking bout the world will end when he comes into power ;

talk bout haters ;

barack obama '08 ;

hmmm then it was thanksgiving break ;

stayed with my sistuh during the break ;
hmmm black friday ;

woke up sooo early just for some sales that werent even worth it ;

but uhmmmm i went shopping though ;
got meh some cutee outfits ;

went over to my bestie peace's house for the 1st timeee ;
manyeee she gave meh some smoked turkeyy && it was good !

&& she had the nerve to not bring some more to church lol ;

then it was getting close to christmas ;

haha i remember when i bake cookies from scratch ;

mayneee it turn out good but i prolly put too much flour ;

then finals came . . . only got to exempt one final which was whap ;
hmm but it was a fun week ;

all of them were easy execept for biology ;

hmm i didnt like my semeseter gradess soo i knew i had to work hard during the second semester ;

[that pictuh was of marcellus paris terrance mehh && deonte after finals]

christmas break ;

on christmas we had few familes come over ;

i mean it was straight ;

hmm i got a book 4rm my sister a ipod shuffle from my step mom && $50 from my dad ;

hmmm not much apparently ;

sorta hated the beginning of the break ;
but then again christmas isnt bout gifts ;

but the rest of the break me my sistuh && my dad decide to have a road trip to orlando && miami ;

went to disney world in orlando ;

my dad decided to pick epcot [worse && most boriest park of disney world] ;

me && my sistuh were sorta pist but we made the best out of it ;

&& then went to went to holy land ;

kinduh boring too but oh wells ;

then we went to miami to visit the cuzins ;

had fun with them as alwayss ;

spent new years with them ;

took 17 hours to get back home from miami ;

then i moved houses ;

it was time to move out of my old

house that i lived in for bout

5 years ;
[ longest ive ever stayed in a house ; ]

hmmm i was excited to get out of that neighborhood ;

i mean even though i moved aross the street into a different neighborhood it was still better ;

i hateddd that house ;

too many bad memories in that house ;

from the time i jumped from the top of my house to the bottom of my house to the cops && ambulance coming over another time ;

basketball season was out && track season was in ;

i quit training for basketball to join the track team ;

i wanted to run 400 && mile relay's ;

cause i did that in middle skool && i was good at it too ;

but then i realize i wasnt as good as i was back then ;

so i just ended up being the manager && doing concession stands ;

which didnt last long lol ;

so i was just in the period for no reason bascially ;

but i had fun w/ all the gurls ;

then it was spring break ;

hmm stayed over my sistuhs place again ;

hmm went shopping ;

went to the rodeo for the first time ;

im telling you to try the smoked turkeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ;

ooo i was in heaven while eating that !

had good meals ;

my sistuh knows how to throw down in the kitchen ;

nothing spectular happened but it was kool ;

hmm ashley's b-day party ;

that was fun ;

they had great food ;

but there was drama . . .

no need to say what the drama was ;

all im going to say that is life isnt bettuh when you do unGodly things . . .

then it was taks season ;

ohhh gosh taks is a complete waste of time ;

sit in a room && take a test thats untimed ;

i mean every other test that you take in the future is usually timed ;

so whats the point of taking this test thats too easy untimed ?

makes no sense to mehh ;

the only thing i like bout taks is it helps for yur exemptions ;

i got commended on all taks execpt the science one ;

the science was a killer . . .
&& then there was the ap exam testing . . .

but you should of already seen my entry on that . . .

then it was swine flu . . .

oh Lord ;

what a nightmare ;

soo many different rumors ;

&& guess what ?

the swine flu is just like any other flu ;

that was stupidd ish right there ;

probably did it to take the attention off of this recession we going through ;

but i mean it did work ;

but after some weeks everything went back to normal ;

waste of time && worry . . .

election time again ;

only this time it was for the student body at our skool ;

so i was running for junior class secretary ;

mayneee i worked my butt off to win ;

made six shirts && made 2239482390483209 cup cakess ;

&& posted up big posters around my skool ;

in only to find out that . . . i didnt win ;

but i mean there was like 6 other ppl running so i did have alot of competition ;

sum gurl thats ranked 1st in our class won ;

&& i really wanted to win too ;

to be honest not to try && change the skool ;

just to have something to have on my resume when appling to colleges ;
so the last week of skool came ;

finals && water balloon fightss ;

people who got caught with them && water guns got suspensions && lost exemptions ;

sucked to be them !

i exempted all finals but one [food technology] ;

i ended up having all A's && one B [whap] for the yearly average && for my last six weeks ;

i was actually quite proud of myself ;

but all thanks goes to God ;

had fun during finals week ;

one day got caught leaving the campus ;

had to dip out the ap office as soon as the ap's werent looking ;

wasnt trying to jeopardize my exemptions ;

when comparing this skool year to my freshman year :

ive changed who i hunged out at skool ;

will be changing again since i mostly hunged out with seniors ;

my bestfrand changed thank GOD ;

now they're brigette[left] && peace[right] ;

boy status still the same hahahahahahaha ;

grades have improved ;

motivation to keep doing whats right has increased ;

the way i dressed changedd ;

the way i did my hair changedd && looked better [my opinion] ;

found a new hobby : painting ;

tried alot of new things ;

didnt care what people thought anymore ;

relationship with God became stronger ;

balanced life bettuh ;

&& had a different experience ;

i left out ALOT of thingss ;

but these are the ones that stick out to mehh the most ;

hmmm had a great year overall ;
hope its bettuh for my junior year ;

&retrobarbie♥-

& stay tuned until the next entry . . .

life is like a game . . .

pacman maybe ?

i like to think so ;

i mean those little 4 monsters are out to get pacman ;

just like there are always people that are out to get you ;

people that dont have anything bettuh to do but to try && bring you down ;

haters maybe ? satan maybeee ?

yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ;

if your not careful while playing pacman you'll get eaten by those monsters ;

just like if yur not careful in life those haters or satan might bring you down ;

but at least you have 3 lives before you die ;

just like how alot of people have near death experiecences even though it might be more than 3 ;

but you get what im trynna say right ?

everyone has their moments when they feel all alone in this world && no one there to help you && feel like everyones out to get you ;

just like in pacman no one's helping you && those monsters are there chasing you ;

those white big dots are there so pacman can eat them && also eat the monsters ;

just like in life you have the ability to never let satan win or to never let haters bring you down ;

or maybe life is like :

trouble !

so you need four little pegs to enter into that "safe zone" . . .

well consider the "safe zone" as heaven . . .

so even though you only come into this world on your own & leave it on your own ;

its always good to help those your close to live a good life && get into heaven ;

just consider the other 3 pegs as your close frands ;

oncee you get into the safe zone nothing can bring you back ;

its hard getting into the safe zonee though ;

just like its hard to do whats right && get into heaven ;

you press the dice to see how many spaces you move && sometimes you have to go back home because your opponent might have to take yur spot ;

[its kinduh hard to explain if you've never played trouble before]

just like in live there are always obstacles that get in the way ;

but its always good to keep your goals in mind to motivate you into not letting the obstacles get in yur way ;

just like in trouble the only goal is to get all your 4 pegs into the "safe zone" ;

&& sometimes you just have to fight real hard for what you want because sometimes yur not the only one fighting for it ;

well thank GOD life isnt really just like pacman or trouble ;

some people have wayy more than 3 chances to live ;

&& that sad thing is that when people go through near death experiences they still take life for granted . . .

if yur lucky you'll find good frands to help you out when you feel alone ;

well at least a dice doesnt control what you can or cant do in life ;

people you DO !

i mean yea you cant control how you die or when you die ;

but you control how you live ;

well life isnt a race to see who gets into heaven first ;

its just matters that you get there ;

soo maybe im not the best in analogies . . .

but you get my drift right ?

appearance isnt what its cracked up to be ;

ask this question to yourself ?

do more people want to act like you ;

or look like you ?

what i dont understand these days is that what people would do just to look good ;

i mean what defines looking "good" ?

if God made you a certain way then isnt that good enough ?

why must you change yurself just to look good ;

i mean i do it sometimes by wearing makeup or wearing something that might reveal a little too much ;

but to the point where you harm your body by going to tanning beds, starving yourself, getting surgery ?

thats NOT going to make you look bettuh ;

if anything it will make you look worse ;

i mean some people do look better with breast implants or getting tanner . . .

but really ? there was a reason why you had a 32 a cup or a reason why you were pale ;

what does self-confidence mean ?

realistic confidence in one's own judgment, ability, power, etc. ;

when you start thinking you look "good" is when others will think the same ;

because confidence does attract the opposite sex ;

but not to the point when you start getting cocky && being in denial ;

being conceited would be having extruh baggage && you wearing a bikini ;

having confidence would be having extruh baggage && wearing a one suit ;

&& lacking confidence would be having extruh baggage && wearing shorts with a big tee over your bathin suit ;

since the difference ?

i hate it when people put up a front ;

alot of those people who act hard are really soft && sensitive ;

when people say hurtful things dont try to front && act like it didnt hurt you ;

instead of "acting" get some confidence && make those words NOT hurt you ;

i mean when people say you look ugly or say your fat ;

if YOU know your not ugly && not fat then who are they to say otherwise ?

but if you really think your not all that pretty makeup wont hurt but lets not get obesseive with it ;

if you think your fat excercise wont hurt you ;

most of the people who think they are all that && they think they're sexy are usually the ones with the lowest self-esteem ;

people who just bump their gums && love to talk ish

are usually the ones who are all bout talk && not backing it up ;

look if you cant fight dont act like you can ;

[trust im talking from exprience but at least i've learned my lesson unlike other people]

i mean you probably dont wannuh look like a punk ;

but most of the time 2/3 you could of avoided the whole situation ;

dont put yourself in drama you dont belong it ;
or just dont even be involved in drama ;
just try to avoid it as much as you can ;

manyeee why do people think the way you dress && the type of swagg you have is sooooooooooooo important ?

because its NOT ;

yeaa its kool if you can put a nice outfit together && wear it ;

but if you not going to be a model or career in the fashion industry ;

then why the hell does it matter soo much ?

i know for a fact how cute you dress in high school wont matter when you grow up ;

but i bet what type of education you got out of it will ;

wearing the latest sb's or jays or rocking true religion is fly && all ;

but why doesnt anybody think getting straight a's is fly ?
to mehhh it is ;
its nice to add some spunk to yur outfit but not to the point when thats all you focus on ;

dont sit there && talk down on how bad someone dresses ;
if they didnt match or if their outfit isnt cute enough ;
if your not going to buy them clothes then why do you care ?
dont sit there && critize what someone wears ;
you never know if thats all they can afford ;
because i know at some point someone has talked down on your outfit && i know you didnt like it ;
so why do the same to someone else if you know exactly how they are feeling ?
that doesnt make any kind of sense to meh !
if you cant afford the latest things ;
then you DONT need them ;
lets not go rob a bank or steal some clothes from the mall ;
trust its not cute to have shoplifting on your record ;
because lately that seems to be the latest trend ;

but babyyy im not getting into that trend ;

look just be content with the way you look && the way you are !

ap testing . . .

whoo manyee what a day !

been waiting for this day to pass by ;
today i took my world history ap test ;
to be honest it wasnt even hard ;
it was just difficult because i didnt know shizznet !
well except the slave trade && you already know why i know that lol . . .

well you need at least a 3 to pass ;
but most colleges only accept a 4 or 5 ;
before i was like if i dont pass immuh cry ;
but you knoww what ?
im not . . .
i dont deserve a passing grade ;
cause this year instead of studying my notes [that i barely ever took] or the textbook ;
i was studying on how to cheat . . .
sad huh ?
but thats what happens ;
cheaters never prosper ;
so if i pass thank GOD ;
but if i dont i aint trippen life goes on ;
soo even if whap destroyed my gpa at least i stuck through with the class ;

but im not quitting ;
because i know what to expect on the next ap courses i take next year && my senior year ;
the whole time i was in that helluh cold room for bout 4 1/2 hrs i was sitting there thinkin to myself ;
what am i doing with my life ?
all those extruh unimportant things im focused on at the moment arent important ;
[no need to know what those unimportant things are] ;
whats really important at the moment besides God of course is. . . .

getting into my top 5 colleges of my choice which are :
-columbia university ;
-university of california at los angeles ;
-university of texas at austin;
-baylor university ;
-houston baptist university ;
[i tried to do the skool colors]


&& yes those are the order of how much i wannuh get into them ;
i have MIGHT not have the grades at the moment but i have the ambition to ;
&& hopefully this time next year i'll be able to say i have the grades ;


whap = world history advanced placement ;

iPAINT

so this year i discovered something new that im interested in ;
PAINTING !

whether it be on paper or on t-shirt ;
i just love touching paint ;
&& getting my fingers dirty ;
i make shirts as you can see ;
if you want one i only charge $10 ;
i know im not the best but i think im pretty decent ;
but its up to your judgement ;
someone once told meh not to pick up a paint bottle again lol ;
but their just hatersss && those people never prosper =] ;

&& these are some examples of my artwork :

first shirt i ever made for myself && quote is from one of t.i songs ;
im NOT illiterate because i NOW know how to spell original lol ;
i made it for rita to wear for her boyfrand's game [messed up a little] ;
i made this shirt for my sister for one of her christmas gifts ;
doesnt my toes look so delicious that makes you wanna eat 'em ? (;

can you find the error ? . . . i need to pay attention in english huh ?